Author Archives: mommydignen

I don’t live in a gorgeous farm house. I don’t have it all together. I’m often struggling to comprehend that I am the mother and not the kid anymore. My house is more a mess than in order… To be honest, so is my brain. But, my heart. My heart is 100% focused on bringingContinue reading “Magic and Love; not Perfection”

Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, and shades of purple. Then black, white, and dresses. That’s how my closet was organized for years. There was a special spot for jeans and dress pants as well. I had a precise system for my 60 plus pairs of shoes too. They laid strategically upon shoe racks in orderContinue reading “How my Children Saved Me from my OCD”

While others dread the ending of Summer; I have always loved the familiarity and the possibility that those cooler temperatures bring. It’s more than apples, pumpkins, and a wardrobe change. It’s the essence of nostalgia. It’s a chance to start fresh with structure and grace. As a child, the new school year always made meContinue reading “The Feeling of Fall”

“Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue…” I sang, in a newly painted surfer blue nursery; as I rocked and rubbed my rotund belly safely housing my first baby boy. I rocked back and forth dreaming of what he would look like. I rocked back and forth imagining his sweet little fingers and sweet littleContinue reading “The Rocking Chair”

“Holly, are you sleeping?” My dad would ask me every night when I was a little girl. This would be after he sang “Daddy’s Little Girl” several times to help me fall asleep. Then I would pretend to fall asleep and whisper “Yes.” My dad would carry me up to my room, tuck me in,Continue reading “Daddy’s Little Girl”

We’re all treading water in the middle of the deep blue ocean waiting for a rescue helicopter or ship to save us. However, some of us have rafts, floats, or floating debris to grab a hold of. Then there are some of us constantly using our overly exerted arms and legs to stay afloat. EventuallyContinue reading “10 Tools to Help you Find your Happiness : Mental Health Awareness”

My mom always says that when a baby is conceived and/or born, someone in the same family passes on to Heaven. I think of it as a body exchange with the essence of the soul whose time on Earth has ended. Honestly, I never really bought into that whole superstition. I chalked it all upContinue reading “Old Souls into New Souls (Part 1)”

When I was younger, and dreamed of being a wife and mother; I always wanted a big family. I wanted a minimum of five kids. After all, my mother is the youngest of ten children. Years passed and I met my husband. He wanted however many kids that I wanted. After several years of teachingContinue reading “We Waited Five Years to Have our Second Baby, Because our First was so Strong-Willed”

Deep breaths… in through the nose, out through the mouth. My heart is pounding out of my chest. My head feels like it’s going to explode. I’ve taken a shower, swallowed the maximum capacity of Motrin for the day, and I still can’t seem to feel better. I literally just left the doctor’s office. I’mContinue reading “The mind of Anxiety: Deep Breaths… in Through the Nose, out Through the Mouth”